Freedom Unconditionally
Standing in the fields of my imagination, apart from all that ails me, amidst the day dreams and sweet interpretations of how my life should be I find my perplexity fleeing. I have been so twisted lately focused in on such tragedies as separation and division, where all my thoughts were manipulated into some kind of comatose stasis.
Now, upon realizing my new found fate, I must compose a new future. I must head out from a new beginning. Starting from right now what am I to do? I still have loved ones to care for. And that’s when it happens. My creativity returns. The dreams and inspirations of a passionate pursuer set fire to all that’s around me. There I am in the fields; dreaming of what to do with tomorrow. I ask myself, how can I be thinking like this now? The separation isn’t final yet. There are still so many things that will be an issue tomorrow. Why am I day dreaming about glorious happenings that don’t really occur in the real life?
Just then my thoughts flash back to her. I can see her everywhere and everywhere I see her she is beautiful. How is that? How do I keep from hating her? Why? Because. I am unconditionally in Love with her. In all the thousands of hurtful ways possible she could never turn my eyes from her. She could never turn my heart from her. Unconditional Love is Freedom. I can honestly say, that looking back on our life together, I have no regret being with her. Due to my unchanging Foundation, I was prevented from providing her with any wavering answers or responses. If I am asked now, or were asked then I would have no fear or hesitation in answering, because it would be the same answer. The problem with most unfounded emotions is that they can easily result in lies; and lies are hard to keep up with.
My answers were truthful. They were founded. They were carved into an immovable, un-persuaded force. There fore I would have no shame or difficulty in speaking them. Things did not go so accordingly hoped for. But, in spite of all failed efforts if I were given the chance I’d do it again. I stood for what I believed in. I did well in standing for what I believed and there is nothing that anyone can do about it. I can dream about tomorrow, inspired and caught up with initiative and drive because I have released my regrets of yesterday. Do I still hurt? Yes. But can I go on? Even, Yes. There’s still chance, with all prayer and supplication, that she may return to me before this becomes a done deal. And with all thanksgiving and praise unto God I’d continue loving her just the same. I would immediately return my hands to the plow for work to be the best husband I could. Because. There is no doubt.
There is no doubt because Love is unconditional. There is no regret because Love is unchanging. There is no hesitation because Love is Freedom. Would I make the exact same decision? Probably or Probably not; I don’t think it matters. But the reasons for making them would be the same; and therefore I will fret not, for this is not the heart of Love. This world has perverted the very understanding of what Love is. I don’t think there are any “What Ifs” in Love, either it is or it isn’t, either you are or you never were. Don’t get it confused with anything else.
I understand that the pain I still feel is just the longing to have her by my side. I have been freed from feeling guilt. For I now know that that guilt would say to the world my Love was not real.
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